Hey guys, i know i have not written a journal in such a long time, but it's due to the fact that i'm upset with life. The fact is, my friends, that life has been so bad, and getting worse even as i type, that i have decided to be upset with it.
So. I am very very upset.
been thinking about a razorblade or two but i decided to punish myself by living.
The fact is (and i am not so shure that isn't the main issue i have with life), is that it sucks.
you may ask yourself why.
Believe me, that is what i ask myself everyday, from the moment i wake up till the moment i lay to sleep, staring at the one or two razorblades i have planted near my bed, on the wall.

but, still, i will continue punishing myself by living.

One of the main problems of my life is my girlfriend. She has an upset stomach, due to the long period of incarceration (oops, did i let it slip?) i meant hospitalisation - as she's been telling everyone, it seems the food they were given there was not necessarily the most fresh and rat-free food of the world.

Right now i have a very big issue with her for writing my journal. But i promise (to her of course) i will forgive her at once and start massaging one of her legs.

feet.

whatever.

She has been going through all of my notes and secret love letters i have been receiving concerning maps and telephone numbers. And since she is so jealous i think i will carry her to bed in the next 5 minutes, but as i am currently reading from the screen i guess i am a bit curious about how her brain works, so i guess i'll keep her there for a little while longer.
beep.

So. If any of you should receive a note containing one of the following messages, please disregard and keep sending love notes here, on this account :

"Please send me an sms instead, because she doesn't really have access to my connex mobile number all the time, and even if she did, she can't really push buttons"
"Honey, i know i promised you those photos, but please, don't bug me on this account any longer, she knows the password now! and she can log onto my account almost anytime and she can discover our secret love letters"
BRRRRRr

i would like to post this now, but i promise she (i mean i) will complete it later.
Faggoty fag fa g fag gap.